Sunday, November 22, 2009

Sick.....................


Ick. I'm sick.  Or rather, I was really sick, and now I'm slightly better.
I ate for the first time since Wednesday yesterday.  Threw up 10 times Thursday.  Almost threw up yesterday.  Dry heaved around 6 times Friday.  Almost passed out during softball yesterday.
I ran out of stuff to throw up.  It was gross. Throwing up is such an awful physical sensation. You all of a sudden start sweating, and then you get awful woozy, and then the gagging, the ewwwwwwwww. Stopping. Dropped my uncle off to get on his cruise today.  Everyone in the car was talking about throwing up.  I know for a fact that none of them has thrown up in at least 10 years. I told them to shut up, I might puke on them if they don't. They did. I can barely stand.  This sucks.  I'm slowly being allowed to eat. key word slowly. Blah.
~molly

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

my favorite ghost


His hands,
are your hands
If only in my mind
Their touch, 
if I forget,
if I close my eyes,
if I pretend,
it could be yours.
Almost.

I’d not forgotten you,
and I don’t hate you,
as you seem to think.


In fact, 
quite the opposite. 
I miss you, 
and I love you.
He’s not you.

But I was scared,
so I killed this bond,
before it could grow,
and hurt me.
Now you’re gone, 
a murmur of
a rainy Saturday
in June.

You are gone.
You are not here.
You are not mine.
I don’t pretend you are.
I must forget this.
It was my choice.
But the problem is,
I can’t.

I can’t forget the ghost,
that lingers on during the 
end of that song
or turn away from 
once inviting curbs.
You are my demon,
my haunt that won’t leave me.
But please,
don’t leave me.
You are my favorite 
ghost.
~molly c.


Sunday, October 18, 2009

Dodging Raindrops





Originally uploaded by lucy96734

Dodging Raindrops


I remember the first time I saw you
Standing in the grey, bleak day
Scrunching your face up every time
A drop of water hit you
Trying to dodge the drops
Trying to do the impossible

I remember that smile
That little curve of red
That stood out from the shades of grey

I remember smiling back
More of a grin really
Teeth showing
Lifting my head to the sky
Fingers spread out

I remember now
We all have raindrops to dodge
Impossibilities to do
We just need to remember
That a simple smile
Can get us through

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

i'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining (:

We are a week slash two weeks into October.  Can you believe it?  (i know i can't) 
We're right up on  that time of year.  That nerve wracking, nail biting, fist clenching

couple of weeks.
That's right.
MLB postseason.
AND THE DODGERS ARE IN THE NLCS!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOO!!!!!! 
I'm going to the game Thursday.  I went to the first game of the NLDS.  Painted my face.
It was pretty awesome.
:D


School sucks.  Or, most of it does... I get so ridiculously bored, except in English. I like that class.  And the day seems to go on ffffffooooooorrrrrreeevvvvverrr. 
Meh...
We are working on a compare and contrast essay in English, about different "cliques". you must interview random (or just people that aren't part of that clique) to get stereotypes of the clique.  Then you gotta interview people from the clique.  Then you gotta write an essay about it.  This is due the 20th.  I should probably get on that.  As much as I hate when teachers give you only one or two nights to do an assignment, I do a better job than when I get two weeks to do it.  Because I am a procrastinator .  OH which reminds me I have to do that long term math assignment. FUN!
But other than that, school is good (ish)


I'm kinda sick right now, it's kinda raining, and my dad is kinda at a meeting, and i'm kinda bored, and kinda have nothing to do.
AN OPPORTUNITY TO WRITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have a great week!
~molly (:





Friday, October 2, 2009

october


spiraling (EXPLORED)
Originally uploaded by Serena Joyce

ah school, back in the swing of things.
sort of.
kind of.
not really.
:D
so far, all goes well this year at school. i've made some new friends [ :) ]
i've severed some ties that needed to be severed. i've made amends with some people who i missed. and i've kept on top of my school work.
let's keep it that way.
in this past week that i have been grounded, i have been denied internet, except for the purpose of school work. it is pathetic, and i mean PATHETIC how reliant i am on internet/facebook/ichat/cell phone. P A T H E T I C. For the past week i've felt so disconnected from my friends/the world, it's ridiculous. and to think i get internet back only for this weekend really....
hopefully, i can start posting english assignments on here, but they might just be boring boring essays...

root for the dodgers, and have a great weekend!!

~molly (:

Sunday, September 20, 2009

ok I didn't plan on doing this but I will because I know I won't ever get around to a super detailed post about India.

sorry for that long title.  but it summarizes what i am about to do. which is try to compress India into a post.  i am wishing myself luck.  (BTW sorry that the pictures are bad quality-- i dragged them off my album on facebook :D)
Still in New Delhi, we went to Humayun's tomb.  It was soooooooooooooooooooooo sooo sooo beautiful. The Taj Mahal was in part based off it's design.  The first double dome (i think that's what it's called) in India.  It's really beautiful place, sandstone, with a garden.  Also, we went to the National Museum. and the Craft Museum, which I like more than the National Museum.  A couple carpet shops (ergg) and of course, Professor Butt, who ensured that I will never forget that hand knotted carpets are in fact NOT the same as hand made.  We went to the Gandhi Museum, on the location of his martyrdom.  The stuff downstairs was really interesting, and the stuff upstairs was too.  But th
e stuff upstairs was a little trippy.  Like something from a sixties movie...but still interesting.  It was odd to be in such a peaceful place in the middle of New Delhi.
Flash forward through the super nice domestic terminal in Delhi, to hopping off the plane in Varanasi, possibly my favorite place we went.  It's a holy Hindu city, and also a holy Buddhist city I think.  It's one of the worlds oldest living cities.  It's considered a "small" city.  Small being a population of about 4 million. :D  It's a lot different than New Delhi, which is much more urban.  Varanasi is located on the banks of the river Ganges. The monsoon this year was bad, so the river was kinda down, but not all the way.  While we were there, there were a lot of pilgrims, dressed in saffron clothing, which has a special meaning, that escapes my mind.  Might be sacrifice.  They walk from their homes, and take water from the river, because it is holy.  A lot of people are cremated in Varanasi, because of its h
oliness.  There are two main crematoriums, and one electrical one.  The two main ones have around 200 crem
ations a day.  We took a little boat out on the Ganges, and made our way over to the crematorium.  The people there don't mind if you watch, you just can't take pictures beyond a certain point.  It was really...I'm not sure the word to use...interesting? I'm not sure.  The atmosphere made it so that it was macabre or morbid at
all.  Death there is treated a lot differently than it is here, so the dead bodies wrapped in their cloth didn't seem scary or bad.  They seemed more peaceful.  We took the boat back in, and watched the evening ceremonies, which are to honor Mother Ganges.  Those were really cool.  We were on the banks of the river, seeing the moon rise over the Ganges.  It was really indescribable.  We went out on the river again the next day, at around 4 in the morning, which was no biggie, since I was already up.  We then went to temples, museums, and a couple historical locations.
Back to New Delhi.  Into the car.  Onto the road.  Holding onto my seat.  I was told on multiple occasions there, by multiple people, that there is a say
ing in India that goes "to drive in India, you need three things: brakes, a horn, and luck".  SOOSOSOSOSOSO true. All the way to Agra, there were cars coming down the other side of the road, animals and people in the street, yadayadayada.  I fell asleep, woke up in the middle of the night, looked up at the spedometer, and saw the number 100.  I flipped out for about 10 minutes before I realized that it was 100 kilometers per hour.  Not miles.  Whatever- it felt like it.

We checked into out hotel in Agra around 9 hours after we left New Delhi.  I deci
ded to order fried rice, and my dad ordered
 paneer.  I had had paneer in other restraunts and it was ok.  This stuff my dad got, I might have puked a little in my mouth when I saw it.  Too bad my dad has never mastered my technique of making it look like you loved the food you actually hated.  It really works.  He got a little sick.  But not too bad.  ANYWAYS.  The next morning, we got up, and went to the Taj Mahal.   WOAH.
So, everyone has seen pictures of the Taj Mahal, and heard of it's astounding beauty.  Ok. The pictures, the descriptions, they don't come anywhere near the truth.  I was literally left speechless by its beauty.  Me, speechless, that is qui
te a task.  It is such a beautiful building, with the gardens and reflecting pool.  Only bad thing was the breeze (that OH SO AMAZING breeze) rippled the water in the reflecting pool, so you couldn't see the reflection.  It's just amazing and wonderful and breathtaking and.... great.   After that, we went to Agra fort, which had some seriously cool stuff.  But my dad has a terrible fear of heights, and almost got a little sick in one
of the towers.  But that's ok, I liked it.  :D
Onto Jaipur, the pink city.  The hotel there was super nice.  Had a really big pool.  :D
First, we went to the Amber Fort.  My method of transportation: elephant! That was one awesome ride.  I really liked it.  But then, after, I felt bad for the elephant, because it was hot, they wanted to go sleep, and the elephant drivers or whatever they're called, kept hitting their heads with bars.   But still, it's an experience I'm glad I had.  In the Amber fort, there were some awesome rooms, especially the mirror room, where the walls had mirror on them.  I liked that.   City palace was also cool.  We ate lunch next to th
e Maharaja.  or he ate next to us, cuz' we were there first.  That was cool.  We also bought a bunch a pictures, which we got framed, and I might take pictures of the pictures and post them.  Maybe. If I'm not too lazy.  We went to another fort, possibly called Jagra (not sure-can't remember-don't feel like checking) fort, where there was a HUGE cannon, fired once, and a hella lot of monkeys. They were cuties (:  At some point in this huge fort, I lost my dad.  I spent about an hour walking around the fort, end to end, 3 times, in 100 degree heat + humidity, with no water because he had the bag, to look for him.  I swear I almost hit him when I found him.  We went to the monkey temple, which was SUPER DUPER cool. Because of the monkeys :D  I got to feed monkeys!! They took the food out of my ha
nds!!!!!!!!  We went to the Maharaja memorial, which was really cool, because it seemed kind of forgotten.  It was really beautiful, but seemed a  little abandoned.  I liked it.
We hopped a propeller plane (EEK I HATE FLYING SO MUCH) to Udaipur.
Udaipur was by far the smallest city we went to. Not even a million people.  Lazy little town.
We stayed at the Lake palace, which was the summer palace of the Maharana of Udaipur, now converted into a hotel.  A really nice hotel.  REALLY nice.  My favorite pictures of that hotel aren't on my computer at all, so I can't post them, but it was really beautiful and peaceful and relaxing.  It's in the middle of a lake, and you have to take a little boat to get out there. So cool.
We went to the Monsoon Palace, which is on top of a huge hill, and you have to take a really really windy road to get there.  I have no fear of heights, but that drive was a little scary.  Once you got to the top though, you got a great view.  We also went to the city palace, which was the Maharana's winter home, and where the Mah
arana currently lives.  That place was really cool, so great rooms with mirrors in the walls, stained glass, great views.  So beautiful.  By this time, the schalazium (it's a stye on the inside of your eye) in my eyes was really bad, so we had to go back to the hotel, where I moaned and groaned about it.  It was really bad.  Hurt.  Still hasn't quite gone away ):
I was sad to leave Udaipur, and even sadder to leave India.  But we had to, and took the long flight home from New Delhi to Chicago (we got delayed) and I watched Wolverine, 27 Dresses, and Star Trek.  I watched Star Trek 3 times.  We arrived in Chicago before customs opened, so we had to stay on the plane for half an hour, until 5 AM
.  We rushed through that, and ate fast, and then, the flight back to LA got delayed 2 hours.  Whoop-dee-doo.  Back to LA, that flight seemed a lot longer than the 4 and a half hours it was.  Got home.  Went to sleep, after over 48 hours awake.  Got up at odd hours, attempted to get back into the swing of things.  

It was an amazing trip, and if given the chance, I would definitely go back.
Have a great Sunday, and a wonderful week :)

~ molly (:


Thursday, September 10, 2009

OI

SCHOOL STARTS ALL HP AND THEN I HAVE SOFTBALL FOR SCHOOL THEN SOFTBALL FOR MY TEAM THEN I DO HOMEWORK THEN I PRACTICE GUITAR THEN I SLEEP. MY LIFE.